Monday, 9 May 2016

Favourite Poem - Auguries of Innocence, William Blake


One of my favourite poems is Auguries of Innocence by William Blake and it is not a poem to take lightly. Consisting of 132 lines, sometimes written in stanzas and sometimes not, it has been dissected and analysed many, many times as to it's meaning. Whether is be professional, historian, poet or layman, everyone has an opinion as to its underlying message, and I am no different. However, saying that there are come common themes that keep arising, Innocence, Faith & Doubt, God & the Divine, Philosophy, Social Commentaries, and social class.


 
I first came across this poem as with most people of my generation around 20 years ago due to its inclusion in the movie, "Lara Croft: Tomb Raider" starring Angelina Jolie. All we are shown is the first four lines...

"To see a world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour"


To me, these four simple lines struck a chord. As a creative type, I felt that these words were saying that even the simplest of things, even the smallest of things, can hold outstanding beauty and wonder. But not only that, also the amazement and wonder we have as a child were we would create our own worlds and  adventures in our own minds; where years can pass in just an afternoon. As wannabe writer, these lines inspire me so much to creative and to look for not only the small details, but also the larger themes and ideas.

In my school life, while I enjoyed and still enjoy Shakespeare, I hated having to dissect his works. Why does he write it this way? What's the underlying message? In all honesty, I didn't really care. I enjoyed it for what it was, exactly as audiences did back when it was first written. Whether it be comedy, satire or tragedy, you could enjoy the subtle jokes, messages and such without having to break it apart.

So, I'm not going to do that to you, I'm just going to say that this poem deals with the social inequalities involving class and religion at the time of writing, though with our own current state of affairs most of it could apply now as well. Living in a multicultural society it is more acceptable to worship who and what you want or even have or require no faith at all, something that would have inspired fear, horror, and persecution. Having faith and losing it can be a terrifying thing and Blake includes this too. To me innocence is the predominant theme and at times it feels to me as if he is saying, if this is acceptable, why isn't this? It feels like the world seen through the eyes of a child, a child with a religious upbringing. 

I said I wouldn't and I'm sorry, but when Blake talks about God, the lies not seen by the eye, and night and day, to me it seems to say that believing in God and faith in general is a defence against the night and that it is like a dream that upon waking you realise it was just that, a fallacy. Some are born to believe in a power greater than themselves, and some are not. What is with all the animals? Maybe he was just an animal lover!

And with that I will leave you with the poem and the foresight and knowledge that you will agree or disagree. Just make up your own minds and don't be a sheep, but most of all be inspired!



William Blake - Auguries of Innocence

To see a world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour.

A robin redbreast in a cage
Puts all heaven in a rage.

A dove-house fill'd with doves and pigeons
Shudders hell thro' all its regions.
A dog starv'd at his master's gate
Predicts the ruin of the state.

A horse misused upon the road
Calls to heaven for human blood.
Each outcry of the hunted hare
A fibre from the brain does tear.

A skylark wounded in the wing,
A cherubim does cease to sing.
The game-cock clipt and arm'd for fight
Does the rising sun affright.

Every wolf's and lion's howl
Raises from hell a human soul.

The wild deer, wand'ring here and there,
Keeps the human soul from care.
The lamb misus'd breeds public strife,
And yet forgives the butcher's knife.

The bat that flits at close of eve
Has left the brain that won't believe.
The owl that calls upon the night
Speaks the unbeliever's fright.

He who shall hurt the little wren
Shall never be belov'd by men.
He who the ox to wrath has mov'd
Shall never be by woman lov'd.

The wanton boy that kills the fly
Shall feel the spider's enmity.
He who torments the chafer's sprite
Weaves a bower in endless night.

The caterpillar on the leaf
Repeats to thee thy mother's grief.
Kill not the moth nor butterfly,
For the last judgement draweth nigh.

He who shall train the horse to war
Shall never pass the polar bar.
The beggar's dog and widow's cat,
Feed them and thou wilt grow fat.

The gnat that sings his summer's song
Poison gets from slander's tongue.
The poison of the snake and newt
Is the sweat of envy's foot.

The poison of the honey bee
Is the artist's jealousy.

The prince's robes and beggar's rags
Are toadstools on the miser's bags.
A truth that's told with bad intent
Beats all the lies you can invent.

It is right it should be so;
Man was made for joy and woe;
And when this we rightly know,
Thro' the world we safely go.

Joy and woe are woven fine,
A clothing for the soul divine.
Under every grief and pine
Runs a joy with silken twine.

The babe is more than swaddling bands;
Every farmer understands.
Every tear from every eye
Becomes a babe in eternity;

This is caught by females bright,
And return'd to its own delight.
The bleat, the bark, bellow, and roar,
Are waves that beat on heaven's shore.

The babe that weeps the rod beneath
Writes revenge in realms of death.
The beggar's rags, fluttering in air,
Does to rags the heavens tear.

The soldier, arm'd with sword and gun,
Palsied strikes the summer's sun.
The poor man's farthing is worth more
Than all the gold on Afric's shore.

One mite wrung from the lab'rer's hands
Shall buy and sell the miser's lands;
Or, if protected from on high,
Does that whole nation sell and buy.

He who mocks the infant's faith
Shall be mock'd in age and death.
He who shall teach the child to doubt
The rotting grave shall ne'er get out.

He who respects the infant's faith
Triumphs over hell and death.
The child's toys and the old man's reasons
Are the fruits of the two seasons.

The questioner, who sits so sly,
Shall never know how to reply.
He who replies to words of doubt
Doth put the light of knowledge out.

The strongest poison ever known
Came from Caesar's laurel crown.
Nought can deform the human race
Like to the armour's iron brace.

When gold and gems adorn the plow,
To peaceful arts shall envy bow.
A riddle, or the cricket's cry,
Is to doubt a fit reply.

The emmet's inch and eagle's mile
Make lame philosophy to smile.
He who doubts from what he sees
Will ne'er believe, do what you please.

If the sun and moon should doubt,
They'd immediately go out.
To be in a passion you good may do,
But no good if a passion is in you.

The whore and gambler, by the state
Licensed, build that nation's fate.
The harlot's cry from street to street
Shall weave old England's winding-sheet.

The winner's shout, the loser's curse,
Dance before dead England's hearse.

Every night and every morn
Some to misery are born,
Every morn and every night
Some are born to sweet delight.

Some are born to sweet delight,
Some are born to endless night.

We are led to believe a lie
When we see not thro' the eye,
Which was born in a night to perish in a night,
When the soul slept in beams of light.

God appears, and God is light,
To those poor souls who dwell in night;
But does a human form display
To those who dwell in realms of day.


Wednesday, 27 April 2016

Becoming a Writer





 So... you want to become a writer, you have an idea and a story to put out there but you're not sure where to start. The first thing you should do? Don't give up your day job! No seriously, I'm not saying this to discourage anyone merely just to remind you that initially writing isn't the best paid profession and a normal day to day job can be one of the best sources of material or ideas. That is to say that by no means am I a profession writer, I'm in the same boat as most of you, but it allows me to give out some advice and what works for me.

I'm going to set this out into a few sections, What do I need?, Story, Background and Theology, and Research.



What do I Need?

First off, a really good question. What do I need to get me started on the way to becoming an author and writer? Sometimes its different for everyone, but there are a few essential things that you will definitely need. I myself am a bit of a list maker. I think in terms of lists like if I am going camping, what am I sleeping in, on and under, which for me would be sleeping bag, air bed, tent. So in terms of writing,

What am I writing? - My story/idea
What am I writing on/with? - Computer, pen & paper
Storage? - Folders/Files, backups, Dropbox/Google drive

So, you need to know what you are going to write or at least an inkling of what you want your story to be about. Secondly what are you going to write it on. For me I'm mostly using my computer to write as you have the added benefit of spelling and grammar checkers (which can be a pain at times) and it is less messy in terms of mistakes and edits than paper. However saying that, I also use pen/pencil and paper when I don't have access to my computer. Sometimes this can be better as you have a physical object you can interact with, but I will always transcribe it on to my computer at a later date. Storage is very important, we've all seen at one time or another, a writer sat at their typewriter, passing completed pages to a pile beside them. Suddenly someone opens a door or window and there's a big gust of wind and bye bye manuscript. Some people store written pages in files and folders, some leave them stored on their computer and I have to say I'm with the latter. I have my chapters in separate files, and a combined file which are backed up on internal and external hard drives and also stored on Dropbox so I have a rather large safety net and access anywhere I have mobile/cell signal.


There is one more thing I couldn't live without as an aspiring author and that is my Journal. It is an A6 Moleskine Plain Paper Journal with a paperback cover which cost me about £10. There are alternatives out there, but I felt that this was the one for me and there are lined and ruled options too. Wherever I go, this goes with me whether its to work, holiday, a day trip or just out and about to the shops. But why do I have it?

Like the grail diary from Indiana Jones, this journal is full of every idea, thought, quotes and images that have come to me while thinking about what I want my story to be about. Maybe it's something I've seen on TV, in a movie, in another book I've read, a situation I have witnessed or been part of or even a new concept I've just discovered. It all goes in. Even pictures, timelines and research all go in. Essentially this journal becomes my go to book, when I get stuck or need help defining a scene or situation.




Story

What makes a best-seller? A great story! Do you need to know what you're going to write straight from the get-go? No of course you don't. Every great story initially starts off quite different from the end product, the entire process evolves over time. The original idea I had for my story started about 10 years ago with a basic storyline and that is where it sat. a couple of years ago I picked it back up and using that basic framework, started on something a lot grander.  When I am writing, I tend to write in scenes, like a movie script. I think of a situation or an idea and then build a scene around it or pull out key elements or event I want to see in the story and build it up. How do you build a scene? Again think of it like a movie, create your set and scenery and plot how you want events to unfold within it. I doodle, use a 3D modelling package to create my "set" and then work out positions, surroundings and such. Once I'm happy with my scene or chapter its then time to work on the connecting passages or chapters to link it altogether into a cohesive story. It's not always easy and you can go through revision after revision but one day it will click and fit perfectly. People say the best way to write is to write what you know, in my case I love science fiction and fantasy but also technology and history, so when my story is complete it will contain elements of all of them.


 
Death of Thomas and Martha Wayne

Backstory and Theology

A story without a background or underlying ideology is exeactly like the stories you would write in school. A series of events one after another, we did this, then this, then that happened, and then everything was good. The End. All in all good when you are young but that won't reach the wider market or reader base. My original story has evolved to a point where I realised I wasn't actually creating the story I though I was. Adding more and more ideas, characters and events I discovered that I was starting to write the entire backstory and creating an alternative theology to give reason or origins to our current belief systems. And that is even before writing the main storyline. In fact the majority of my journal is concerned with ideas for the backstory and recreating the ideology and origins of our major theologies.
Where would we be without Bruce Wayne's backstory or Anakin Skywalker's? They give reason as to why characters are the way they are, why they chose to do the things they do. Backstory helps enrich our experience of a character and is the reason they become our favourite characters. But on the other hand, backstory is also a way to expand your story universe with new stories and books where you can delve into new areas already prepared but now you can go into more detail. One tip though, never give away too much backstory as it means you can turn a 3 book story into 6.


Research

Research is always important. It's the difference between people loving your story and people picking it apart for the inaccuracies. However saying that it really depends upon the area you're writing about. Non-fiction, crime, and historical pieces require a lot of research into correct clothing for the time period, correct procedures for crime scenes, architecture and more. With Sci-fi and Fantasy you have more leeway, you can be more inventive and creative with the "truth",but if you're going to base it in our reality and history, a lot of details and history will help.
You can gather research from other books and see how other authors dealt with situations, movie adaptation are useful as you can physically see period feature clothing and other details. The Internet is of course an invaluable resourse! You can find civilisation and empire timelines, history of jewellery designs, mythology and more. I have found, images that have inspired me to change ideas, add elements into chapters. Even a music video from the 00's inspired me to write a scene. To be honest once you know what you're writing about and you have you're technical details, the best research is to read as much and as varied as possible. I'm a sci-fi and fantasy person, but I also read adventure and thrillers and have read some romance to get a better insight to these areas. On another note is the difference in the point of view. Will it be a first person; the whole story seen from the point of view of the main character, which may restrict some storytelling but leave you open to rewrite the same story from another characters view, or a third person point of view where the story can flit back and fort between the characters and you can expend on thoughts, emotions and experience. Ultimately that is up to you and the type of story you want to tell.


Ok with that I think I'm done. As I said earlier, I'm no profession writer, I'm just an aspiring author waiting to happen and develop my story. I'm not trying to give advice from false experience, but from what makes sense to me and how I've made use of my time with developing my own story. Life is the best experience and fountain of inspiration you can get so don't just stay in, get out there, go on an adventure, take a walk, talk to a colleague you don't talk to often, spring up conversation with a peculiar topic just to see the reaction and response you get. Take a trip but don't forget your journal!!

Have fun!

Monday, 14 March 2016

First Published Short Story

This is a short story I wrote for an Anti-bullying book called "Inner Giant", and while the story is about suicide there is light at the end of the tunnel. You can find more stories like this and even more in the book and its available on Amazon! Link is at the end of the post.





End of the Line and Then…. You



Mum, Dad,


I’m sorry……. You taught me to be strong, to be a fighter, but I just can’t take it anymore. I’ve tried so hard, so hard but it’s just too much. I’ve been so alone and so scared. I’m sorry I didn’t come to you. I feel like such a disappointment. I feel like my life has been slipping through my fingers and I’ve no control. It’s just one bad day after another.


 I hid the bruises, the cuts and tears, because I didn’t want to worry you. I’m all alone but never left alone. Day and night they hound me, calling, texting, email, facebook, twitter, there is nowhere to hide. You ask why I never answer your calls and texts and I say that my phone died. I turn it off to escape them, to finally get some peace, but even that doesn’t last. Even in my dreams they hurt and hunt me, so I get no rest. 


I’ve skipped school, pretended to be ill but even these are only postponing the inevitable. My friends are gone, they’ve either joined them or abandoned me to avoid the same treatment, and I don’t blame them for it. They should feel safe, live without the constant barrage of abuse and fear. #die #moron are the only ones I can write down for decencies’ sake. I say I’m ok but I think you knew I was often upset, but you didn’t want to intrude. Even if you’d asked I wouldn’t have told you. This was my cross to bear.


You don’t know but I’ve attempted this before. That day a couple of months ago when I was really, really ill, I was so low. I took a full box of paracetamol and Dad’s bottle of vodka. I cried myself to sleep then, I couldn’t even do that right. I don’t know what is wrong with me, why am I like this? Do I deserve this? Why can’t I escape why won’t they let me be? Maybe now I can finally get some peace, some silence. This is the only bit of control I have left. When, where and how.


I’m sorry I wasn’t strong enough, couldn’t be the person you wanted me to be. I did try, so hard. I need you to know that. I need you to know this is not your fault, this is me, mine, taking back control. 


Please, remember me the way I was last summer, so happy, so full of life.


Please, please remember,









































I love you.























































































All I can say is thank you, words cannot explain to you how much of an effect you’ve had. I was in such a dark place and then there was you…. You turned my life around, showed me I was worth so much more.

I could tell that you knew that I was at the end of my rope and about to break when we first met but then you did something I didn’t expect. You saved me, you took me for who I was, insisted I join you for a milkshake. You’d been stood up, you had already ordered, and didn’t want it to go to waste. What are the odds that, on what I thought were my final steps to my end, were actually the first steps to a new life and new me.

We talked…. Well, I talked and you listened and it felt so good. I could finally let go of everything, it came spilling out of me, and the dam had burst. You amazed me for the first time that day and every day since, you just sat there and listened, and when I’d finished and I was sure you run out the door, you got up, moved over to me and just held me. I’d never felt safer in my whole life than I did in that moment and that embrace. You told me I could be who I wanted to be, no longer the victim, no longer the punching bag.

You came with me when I told my parents and again when I told the truth to my teachers what was going on and how low I’d fallen. You showed me a new way, helped me change my online identity so they couldn’t find me anymore, introduced me to new friends, a new phone number and a new outlook on life. It took time, but you were there with me every step of the way. My Mum and Dad keep smiling when they see me, they can see the effect you’ve had, and it’s infectious. I smile back and it feels good.

I am worth, I am loved, I have family, new friends and a new life. They don’t bother me anymore, and if they do say anything, it’s like water off a ducks back now. I have a future now and it starting to look bright.

Thank you and I love you.



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